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The Little things🌱

 I realized recently that just because my story is dark, doesn’t mean my content needs to be so dark. I’m not a dark person, I am at times, but I enjoy happiness. I love laughing and being silly. So to make all my post be so heavy & sad made me not want to write. I know I will have rough days and my healing journey is will be different from everyone else but being so worried people will label me as someone who can’t “get over” the past, that I need to just “let go” & move on. I am moving on, but talking about it makes it so I don’t forget about my past cuz at the end of the day that story is me. Everything that has happened to me has made me become the girl I am today. A sweet, caring, sensitive, passionate, shy, sometimes funny person who really just wants to enjoy my time on this planet without sounding so corny but it’s true. I want to be aware of my emotions & be able to figure out why my mind thinks the way that it does, & if it’s an unhealthy thought I can hopefully catch it & change it. I feel like I’m at this stage in my life where I really am enjoying the little moments in life being the way the sky looks with all the colors as the sun is setting, the funny unusual spots where tiny little wildflowers sprout, the way all music makes me feel, successfully growing my very own garden, to just being happy checking out new places and doing new things that I would never ever do in my life before. 

Not long ago I was taught a very helpful phrase that I’ve been just living by recently & thats “do it scared”, which if you know me you know I’m just a whole body filled with fear, so reminding myself that sometimes you got to get out of your comfort zone to grow has been so freeing and so exciting seeing myself blossom so much in these past couple months has me on cloud nine. 

I know things aren’t always going to feel like this and that’s okay. It’s okay to feel all emotions & it doesn’t mean your broken, means you are living✨ 

Idk all I’m really trying to say is try to enjoy all stages of life because one thing is for sure and that is things change, so appreciate where you are right now. Take a look around and see all the you have in life right now, your family, your friends, your home, down to even the silly little harmless things you do to “get by” in life as it just shows where you are in your healing journey, and it may not always be the prettiest times but it shows growth and that’s always something we should celebrate. 

Until next time friends💌

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